Valentines Day Blues

My word I did not think study would be so intensive that I would be sat at my desk on valentines day studying about... well you really dont need to know. Still I have some chocolates for comfort. They are shaped like hearts and taste like an autumn sunset (and milk chocolate). There is also the light at the end of the tunnel that I am off to Cardiff this weekend to meet up with the three minxs' and the football league reporter.

I am going to introduce the group to "I have never" - the hilarious drinking game. They say the devils water aint so sweet but the City of Cardiff is where that isnt quite true. I will try to be good.

I know i have neglected this part of my life, as i have neglected many other things recently, but bear with me. I have been poorly sick. I think it is man flu but i am not sure. My symptoms are as follows;
the sniffles
body aches
feel sorry for myself
dependancy on night nurse
desire to be waited on day and night

I have also been feeling really home sick lately (unusual) and with this I have lost my va va voom. I feel like something is missing but I dont know what. It is wierd. I am not sure if it is desire for adventure of a feeling that I have not achieved. I cant remember the last good deed I did (worrying). I dont know if I need purpose, inspiration(like what alcoholics refer to as a moment of clarity), guidance or something to drive me. I have listened to 'Hurt' by Johnny Cash a lot(depressing). Feel like I am running on empty at the moment and it is probably just the man flu getting me down.

If my life was a Tom Cruise film I would be at the point where I am having a crisis of confidence but i will emerge from this stronger, more successful and supported by more uplifting music. Like when Goose died in Top Gun and he went on to save that big boat with the headmaster from Back To the Future on it.

Too descriptive?
Sorry.
I will tone it down.